3 days and 11 hours ago
Hello again. Just want to thank everyone who replied to my “back ungainly” post. Your thoughts and encouraging words are very much appreciated. Your support means a lot to me, more than you could ever know.
I think I have “me” figured out. When I quit other times, it wasn’t so much the quitting for me, although that was definitely hard for sure, I know I can get through that part, but I the reason I started again each time was because at around the 6 month mark I realized that yes, I did quit, and yes, I did feel better physically and mentally, but nothing else changed. I guess I was expecting my quit to change all aspects of my life other than just my body, and I became severely disappointed, thinking what’s the point to feeling healthy in a life that doesn’t give anything back to me in other areas, so I started smoking again and gave up. So now I am wondering how to cope with the idea that nothing in my life will change except my health, and what reason is there to be healthy if you don’t have anything to look forward to or hope for?
Sorry fo being long winded.
Thank you all for your kind words & support.
Have a great day!