dahlia
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04 Sep 2018
06 Sep 2018
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I just registered here on Tuesday as a returning quitter after seven years of being happy, proud and free. I set my quit date for the following day and then changed for September 10.18. I thought it would be impossible to quit right away and who am I lying to? As I mentioned in my other posts this past long weekend welcomed me with a pneumonia and I really felt lousy and sick. On Wednesday this week after seeing a doctor I pushed it again. I went outside coughing and trying to breathe this hot humid sweltering air. In my right hand I held a cigarette and I tried to enjoy it. I Inhaled deeply waiting for the “fix” and exhaled looking accidentally at the smoke and in my mind’s eye I suddenly imagined my ill hurting and sick lungs. It was this moment when I decided to quit right on the spot. That day at 2:22 in the afternoon I had my last smoke and today is my first full day of being free. It’s all about your mind set. There is nothing more to it. There is no promissing, getting ready and then procrastinating or about the willpower. I am saying this from my own past experience. It took me three long years of crying, swearing, whiling. Three years I fought this demon. I will not do that again. He doesn’t own me.