ocean
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29 Nov 2017
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31 Dec 2020
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Hi everyone, I tried to stop and lasted 24 hours. I had a sudden brief orthodontic emergency and because I just gave up my car lease, I had to quickly call a cab. So I was out of sorts because it was an unexpected appointment and I had to get there before they closed for the holiday. No problem. But then I called a cab to pick me up, and the foriegn dispatcher couldn't accept the address I was calling from. So I tried a few times, sort of panicking as I had no way of getting home in a lockdown. I walked down the street and had a gas station attendent call a cab from that address and it worked. Needless to say, I got caught up in the moment and ordered a pack of smokes from the attendent.. I was already fighting anxiety as I'd been nicotine free for 24 hours, and I was working at trying to stay calm through the uneasy feelings and cravings prior to the appointment. I panicked, not an actual panic attack, but just a panic (feeling very unorganized and stuck). The pack is almost gone, trying to finish it before midnight so I can start the New Year tobacco free. But how do you cope when you get these moments of feeling a bit 'out of control' when the unexpected happens. It's like I was already anxious from trying to withdraw, so I was uneasy to begin with. Then I responded impulsively to thinking I was stranded, lol!! I hope to be more flexible with my thoughts when something like this happens again!!