Hi Freedom59, what an incredible journey is yours. Your quit is typical of the process all need to go through to quit. Quitting smoking cannot be done on the first attempt nor 2nd nor third. We just need to keep trying and get back to your quit after every relapse until our inner-self become more confident, motivated, and hungrier to quit forever. Once we unleash the power of our inner strength we will then win over battle with this nasty addiction forever. Remember the key is never another puff ever again, or else we will be back at where we started desperately wanting to be where we are today. NOPE!!! :) We can do this.