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I owe everyone here an apology …

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  1. justfortoday
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    Before my quit day (Sunday August 25), I had read a lot of posts here and some thoughts I harbored are as follows:

    - Why are these people making this sound so hard?
    - Isn’t it a simple matter of getting the nicotine out of your system (a few days to a couple of weeks)?
    - Come on people! Just think positive! Tell yourself, I’m a non-smoker, and the craving is my simple addiction to nicotine and has nothing to do with my thoughts!
    - Buck up, for crying out loud!
    - Clearly, I’m far stronger than anyone as I don’t anticipate any hardships with my quit.

    Last night I found myself curled under a blanket on my Lazy-Boy chair watching re-runs of Seinfeld while tears ran down my cheeks and truly believing the rest of my life was going to be one big miserable waste of time if I didn’t smoke!!! And even as my husband rubbed my back trying to comfort me, I wanted to chew his arm off up to the elbow!

    YOU, all of YOU have endured this and yet I was too arrogant to believe it could happen to me. You, all of YOU have reached out and supported each other and I there I was, Miss Smarty Pants, thinking I didn’t need support …

    So Please, forgive my arrogance and my ignorance. I need all of you. I need to hear your struggles and your successes. I need a community wherein there is no shame in hiding under a blanket watching Seinfeld and feeling totally sorry for myself. AND, I need a community that celebrates when we overcome the hurdles of this horrific physical and mental addiction.

    And by the way … I did not smoke, and I did not chew off my husband’s arm.
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  2. atp
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    28 Aug 2019 in reply to justfortoday
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    justfortoday,

    Wow you bring back a lot of 'fond' memories for me. I know it sounds so simple - just don't smoke - and at times that can be the hardest thing you will ever try to do. Congrats on fighting through the withdrawal and the cravings so far. It really does start to get easier as the days and weeks go by. 

    I spent a lot of time talking to my wife about my quit those first few weeks, and when she wasn't around I'd talk to my dog, the steering wheel in my car, etc. 

    I remember walking around in a bit of a haze those first few weeks, not sure what do do with myself, always thirsty, tired, short tempered. It's a lot do - not only are you going through physical withdrawal you are also completely new to being a non-smoker and it is hard learning how to do that. It was so strange to walk my dog and not smoke. 

    Somewhere around the second or third week I really started to feel better, you will too. 

    One thing i did was I also posted on here a lot - I kept a journal of sorts. It really helped me to go back and read those logs when I was craving a smoke. 
  3. linda, quit coach
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    Hi justfortoday,

    Thank you for sharing your challenges and accomplishments with us and congratulations for all the hard work you’ve done to reach this day!

    Please you don’t have to apologize. You didn’t know what to expect and everyone is different. For many people, smoking cessation can be difficult and it’s a big lifestyle change: our habits and routine can be upside down and sometimes, we have to make some changes and adjustments – As we know change is not easy. But, if we persevere and keep trying, we will remain smoke-free for good.

    You have worked very hard to get this far - keep moving forward in this way, you are doing fantastic! You have a good strong mindset to definitely help you get through the hard times and conquer this addiction!

    Know that we are here for you. You can do this!

    Congratulations again and keep going strong!
  4. brieffree
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    Hi Justfortoday

      Thank you for been yourself!, All that I read was a truly quitting Journey Day!
     As yourself, We are People who smokes for many years and decided to quit for our Health or any other rezone! 

     Everyone one of us Addiction is different than other person!

      Your story is no more what you feel and true Healing Brain! 
      Is very good support you have with you, your Husband really support you in that Moment! That is all about it! You really made the change!
     I do remember long ago, having almost the same crave, but I was alone! Other times, I feel like electricity coming from my back head going to my logger back!

      Not any more, I cop different, I do not allowed my self to Fail into the crave, I distract my self!! 
      Be what you are, only you without smokes'!

      I am so happy you are a non smoker!
      All that will power you feel is good! Keep it up! Keep thinking is easy! keep doing what you do! To stay Smoke free!
     We deserve to be  free!
     Congrats in your quit! 
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