ocean
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29 Nov 2017
10 Mar 2018
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I recovered from a slip yesterday in the late afternoon. I had a huge craving after work, on my drive home. I hadn't put a Patch on, (I have to get better at that) and had bought a pack of cigarettes at the grocery store. I smoked one, and it didn't feel good although the nicotine rush felt great, I hated the smoking part of it. The smoke felt so thick, and tasted awful. I promptly soaked the pack under the sink and threw them away. In a way this is progress beause when I had my last slip on Day 17, the cigarette smoke didn't feel foreign like it did yesterday. Yesterday's experience wasn't a pleasure, so I know I'm getting somewhere with that new memory. I have to get my butt whipped to pay more attention in the mornings and get that Patch on before I leave for work, as I didn't have time to put one on at work yesterday. And I discovered a trigger. We were looking forward to the March break yesterday, and I felt a sigh of relief and jubilation as I left work. Maybe it was the sense of something to celebrate that that did me in. Im feeling strong and positive since the slip. But obviously I have to get more serious in the mornings!